The View by Erin Hansen

The Poetic Underground

♪ Oh Soul, Are You Weary and Troubled....♪

Wife-ing.  Mom-ing.  Meal Planning.  Couponing.  Grocery Shopping.  Cooking.  Baking.  Cleaning.  Cleaning.  Cleaning.  Referee-ing.  Teaching.  Studying.  Learning.  Working.  Budgeting.  Paying.  Homeschooling.  Planning.  Field Tripping.  Driving.  Churching.  Taxi-ing.  Churching.  Choir-ing.  Children's, Middle School, and Adult (<--- selfishly).  Serving.  Cooking.  Baking.  Cleaning.  Cleaning.  Cleaning.  Undone household projects.  Waiting.  Waiting.  Waiting  (Grrrrrr). Sewing.  Teaching sewing. Teaching sewing some more.  Bookkeeping. Shopping.  Hair Cutting.  Phone calling.  Emailing.  Networking.  Working.  Sweeping.  Vacuuming.  PET HAIR.  Party planning.  Cleaning.  Cleaning.  Party Attending.  Blogging.  Reading. Working more. Grooming.  Them & myself.  Cooking.  Cleaning.  Sewing.  Sewing.  Sewing.  And more sewing.

"Mom, can you?", "Mom can I?", "Mom, can we?", "Jill, can you?"  "could you?", "would you?".

Sigh.

Ummmmm, Really???

I completely get the idea behind this little catchphrase, but admit I wonder at the person who came up with it. I don't think this person has much in common with me.  ; )  

I also think that this phrase could make some people feel very guilty for being, well.......REAL.  And NORMAL.

Am I blessed?  Without a doubt.

Beyond Measure.

Am I thankful?  Absolutely.

Every day.  

Am I stressed?  Do I sometimes feel so overwhelmed that I can't focus and I think if I don't get a break somewhere, somehow, that the men in white coats will surely come haul me away?

I've instructed my children that if this ever does actually happen, they are required by law to come and visit me.  ; )

I am BLESSED.  In more ways than my tiny little overworked and underpaid ; ) brain can even begin to fathom.  I have the three most incredible children ever created {I know....you think yours are...sorry to burst your bubble ; ) }, I have love, I have awesomely fabulous friends, I have a roof over my head, food to eat, ♥music♥ to sing, ♥homeschooling♥, pets to pet, and work I can do from home using talents that He so graciously gave to me so that I can stay at home.

But to be honest, to be REAL.....with many wonderful blessings come stress.  There are things I do because I want to and things I do because I have to.  I haven't figured out how to let any of those things go at this season of my life, because for the most part.....they are dependent on each other.

And so I strive for balance.  And on those days when I can actually hear the men in white coats coming down the street because balance is nowhere in sight......I realize that in all the busy-ness, in all the chaos of life,  my focus has shifted from the One who gives me the strength to be all He's called me to be in this season to the things He's called me to.

I know I'm not the only one out there juggling so many balls in life right now that they're often tripping all over the ones that have fallen around them.  I know I'm not the only one who gets weary and overwhelmed........and when my eyes are focused on the things, the impossible list of tasks and responsibilities that I cannot fulfill in my own strength, I know that I forgot to give them to the One who gives me the strength in the first place.

Or, more accurately....I did give them to Him, but then I took them back.  Why do I do that?!  Sometimes I wonder why He doesn't stop accepting my apologies and just give up on me....but I'm thankful that He doesn't.

I'm thankful that He never fails to feed my hungry soul in so many ways despite the fact that I don't deserve it. When I seek Him, when I spend time in His Word and in prayer, when I keep the Main Thing the Main Thing,  I find that everything still doesn't get done every day.  The difference is.....I have peace, I have something resembling balance, and I find that all those balls on the floor and the ones still in the air don't seem so overwhelming.

And amazingly enough, He feeds my soul even when I push that time with Him right out of my schedule.  He feeds me with a song I needed to hear at just the right time, with friends who make my day with an unexpected surprise, email or text.  He feeds my soul with hugs and kisses and "You're the best mom ever" (even though I'm not)!  He sends His sustaining love to me in so many ways..............and to you, too.  

You just have to learn to see it. 

In the darkest of the darkest days, in the moments when there seems to be no end and you just have nothing left to give (you've been there, I know you have), turn to Him.  He's been there the whole time.  Lovingly waiting to give your soul what it so desperately needs, and for you to give back to Him whatever it is you keep taking out of His hands.

And unlike us, He can handle it......and begin to show us that we are, in the midst of this crazy, chaotic, stressful  life......

BLESSED.  Abundantly and indescribably so.

Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus

♪ Oh soul are you weary and troubled?

No light in the darkness you see?

There's light for a look at the Saviour,

And life more abundant and free.

Refrain

Turn your eyes upon Jesus, 

Look full in His wonderful face,

And the things of earth will grow strangely dim, 

In the light of His Glory and Grace.

Through death into life everlasting

He passed, and we follow Him there;

Over us sin no more hath dominion -

For more than conquerors we are!

Refrain

Turn your eyes upon Jesus, 

Look full in His wonderful face, 

And the things of earth will grow strangely dim, 

In the light of His Glory and Grace.

His Word shall not fail you - He promised;

Believe Him, and all will be well;

Then go to a world that is dying,

His perfect salvation to tell.

Refrain

Turn your eyes upon Jesus, 

Look full in His wonderful face, 

And the things of earth will grow strangely dim, 

In the light of His Glory and Grace. ♪

Isaiah 40:28-31

New King James Version (NKJV)

²⁸ Have you not known? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the LORD,       The Creator of the ends of the earth,  Neither faints nor is weary.  His understanding is unsearchable. ²⁹ He gives power to the weak, And to those who have no might He increases strength. ³⁰ Even the youths shall faint and be weary, And the young men shall utterly fall, ³¹ But those who wait on the LORD Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles,       They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint.
















This One's Personal.....

Last week, I posted a new Sweet Diva music tote (and am not linking to it because that's not really what this post is about) and showed several other embroidery options.  I mentioned that I really liked them all and that it was hard to choose which one I would do first.  While there is some truth to that (I did mull over it for several minutes), it actually wasn't that hard.  The one I chose was this:

Have you ever taken a Spiritual Gifts test?  

"Having then gifts differing according to the grace that is given to us, let us use them: if prophecy, let us prophesy in proportion to our faith; ⁷ or ministry, let us use it in ourministering; he who teaches, in teaching; ⁸ he who exhorts, in exhortation; he who gives, with liberality; he who leads, with diligence; he who shows mercy, with cheerfulness."

Romans 12: 6-8

We all have them, and if you don't know what yours is, I highly encourage you to do some exploration and find out!  

Mine is Mercy.  I have often joked that it sometimes feels like a curse {not really....I am thankful for who I am and how I am.....and how He will be faithful to continually shape and mold me when my heart is willing}.

Spiritual Gift of Mercy Defined

The gift of mercy is the capacity to feel and express unusual compassion and sympathy for those in difficult or crisis situations and provide them with the necessary help and support to see them through tough times.

People with the Gift of Mercy

They have the ability to "walk in another's shoes" and to feel the pain and burdens they carry. They desire to make a difference in the lives of hurting people without being judgmental. They may have a difficult time evaluating the intentions of others and at times appear naïve.

Mercy in Scripture

Jesus taught on mercy (Matt. 5:7; 9:13; 23:23). He is repeatedly described as having compassion (Matt. 9:36; 15:32; 23:37; Luke 7:13) and was so filled with mercy that He sometimes wept (John 11:35). Jesus' mercy included an attentiveness to and concern for children (Matt. 19:14). Dorcas "was always doing good and helping the poor" (Acts 9:36). Also, the good Samaritan is one of the most classic stories ever told on the subject of mercy (Luke 10:30-37).

Do You Have This Gift?

• Do you find yourself being drawn to people who are needy, hurting, sick, disabled, or elderly?
• Do you often think of ways to minister to those who are suffering?
• Do you sense a great deal of compassion for people having personal and emotional problems?
• Do you find that when you visit those who are suffering it brings you joy rather than depressing you?
• Do you find yourself responding to people more out of compassion than judgment?

~borrowed from The Resurgence, because they describe it perfectly!

This gift of Mercy has me in it's grip right now, as I participate in the 40 Days for Life Campaign.  My heart literally aches, my soul hurts......and not just for the smallest lives that are at the mercy of choices made by others, but for the girls, the women, that are making choices that will place a burden on their own souls for the rest of their lives.

I know this is true, and although I know that I would care passionately about this issue anyway, I know that it grips me with a vice-like hold because it's not just an "issue" for me.....it's personal.

Someone that was once close to me made this choice long ago, or perhaps the choice was not really hers.  I was young, and although it's not talked about, I remember.  Because I was young, I think some think I have forgotten.

I have not forgotten, and I have watched from afar as this person that I love dearly has run from God, blamed God, and hurt daily.  Hurt from and for many things I am sure, but I know that this has to be one thing that has never let her go......and I literally ache for her.

As I stood last Friday watching girls walk into a clinic about to make that same choice, I could picture that someone and wanted to stop them, wanted to help them.....wanted to do something.  I wanted to whisk them away to another local clinic, one that could offer the support and help they really need, and find the One that they need the most.

And so I pray.  And I fast.  For 40 Days.  And as my heart aches, it aches for her.  The one that's close to me.  The one I love.  I pray for her, I ache for her.....I cry for her.  I cry and beg the Lord to reach her.......to show her that His Mercy forgives all, that His blood covers all, that His love heals all.

I beg Him to show her that He cares.  And forgives.  And that there's nothing that we can do that is beyond His realm of healing.

 I pray for her to experience this Truth.  This Truth that drowns out all of Satan's lies.  This Truth, this Gift that can reunite her with that precious life one day, if she will only take it.

And if the one I love, I hurt for,  I pray for, and can't stop thinking of  happens to read this...... I want you to know that His Healing is available to you.  I beg you to let go of all that hurts you from the past and take it.

The ensemble I serve in sang this song this past Sunday.  I sang it for you.  There is nothing that can keep you from His love, if you will only receive it and seek His song of Salvation......there is little that would bring me more joy than to see you stand by His Grace.

 "Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. ³⁸ For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, ³⁹ nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

~ Romans 8:37-38



40 Days for Life

Sept. 28 - Nov. 6

"If My people who are called by My name will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land." 

~ 2 Chronicles 7:14

I've been trying to slowly get back on schedule with my blog posts (really, I have!) for several weeks, and get back on schedule with two of my favorite link-ups at Mom's Mustard Seeds and Faith Barista.  The fall-out of being involved in so many activities, taking trips right before our school year began, school actually beginning, trying to put ideas for Sweet Diva (blog, store, classes) into action and schedule new sewing classes among scheduling my own children's extra-curricular activities has made my brain feel like the ball being thrown furiously about in a pinball machine!

I heard about the 40 Days for Life organization a while back and have been wanting to participate in the next campaign since.  I almost missed it, but thankfully, through a friend's Facebook post, I didn't. =)

There are few issues that I feel as passionately about than abortion and the sanctity of human life.  So passionately, in fact, that I find it hard to discuss or debate about in person because my emotions get the better of me and I end up sounding like a bumbling idiot! ; ) I think I might sound like a bumbling idiot more often than just on passionate issues =), but there's something about writing that allows me to express myself in the way I intend....and find that it has become an outlet that helps the quiet, shy side of myself ~ who is often intimidated at putting myself in the spotlight ~ find my voice.

Today, I begin participating in a commitment to prayer and fasting ~ taking action for those who cannot defend themselves, taking action Biblically and peacefully to make a difference in the fight for LIFE.  What better issue to bring me out of my fog and get my blog back on track?

I have always been passionate about this fight, but once God took me from a young woman who wasn't sure she would have children (fear and insecurity over my abilities be a good mother) to a calling that has so blessed and consumed my heart and soul, the fight became even more personal.  I love being a Mom, I love children......and what our society & culture is doing breaks my heart.

As I begin this 40 day journey, I am prepared for a closer walk with my Lord and call on His name for change and protection for His weakest, most fragile little ones that are at the mercy of those whose actions can take their precious lives.  It's not too late to join me, even if you're reading this after the official journey has begun......jump in when you can.  The sincere efforts and prayers of God's people are not limited to our program dates and times and will not return void.  

Let me know if you do join our vigil.  I'd love to encourage you!



Multitude Monday......on Wednesday: Gifts 321 - 334

If a fellow isn't thankful for what he's got, he isn't likely to be thankful for what he's going to get.  ~Frank A. Clark

321.  Another room completed....almost =)

322.  A very clean house....if I tie my children to the dining room chairs and my husband to his "throne" in front of the TV, do you think I can make it last more than a day ????

323.  A very organized utility/laundry room....I thought of painting it, too, in the hopes that making it prettier would inspire my family to stop treating it as the-room-we-can-throw-everything-into-any-which-way-it-lands-because-no-one-but-us-ever-sees-it, but decided all other rooms have priority.  If these people who live with me don't respect my hard work and effort this time , I may consider selling them on ebay. { <--------- totally kidding, please do not call the authorities}

324.  My little house on the cul-de-sac packed with loud, hyper kids and ♥sweet friends♥....

325. ......to help us celebrate the 4th of July.....

326. the fireworks show on the Riverwalk.....although, I have to admit I often enjoy watching the kids' reactions more than the fireworks =)

327.  Wisdom to make more potato salad, baked beans, corn-on-the-cob, and banana pudding than we needed.....so that last night all I had to do was marinate & prepare.....

328.  Some amazing chicken on the grill!!

329.  Planned leftovers = easy night for the chef  ; )

330.  Our land of liberty, which allows us to....

331.  Live freely,

332.  Love freely,

333. and WORSHIP freely

334. under the provision of the God that I trust....regardless of circumstances, regardless of the unknown to come, regardless of anything... ♥

Praying for my country today, it's leaders, and it's future.....

"If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land." 

~ 2 Chronicles 7:14



Multitude Monday......on Wednesday: Gifts 307 - 320

Most human beings have an almost infinite capacity for taking things for granted.  

~Aldous Huxley

307.  Extra-strength pain reliever

308.  When what should be a really simple project that turns into a nightmare is finally finished and I don't have to look at it again!!!

Embroidering a monogram for a little girl onto  this little bag should be a quick & easy task.....unless, however, your machine/threads jam up while stitching ~ and, while struggling to separate the bag from the precious machine, it rips a small hole in it!!! =(  The only way to salvage it was to make an applique instead.  My children all ♥sweetly♥ said they like it better this way anyway....I now forgive them for almost making me lose my mind while trying to shop with them yesterday.
Terrible picture....I was aggravated, frustrated and completely disgusted at the time!!

309.  Tweezers ~ a quite useful little tool for many things

310.  Seam rippers

311.  Chocolate-flavored coffee creamer

312.  Text msgs. that make me laugh at just the right time

313.  Stubbornness ~ there are times when it serves me well ; )

314.  Nintendo DS ~ I sometimes regret saying yes to these devices, and other times they offer me a much needed moment's peace!

this pic is from this past winter, but the scene has been replayed recently  ;)

315.  Homemade cinnamon rolls!

316.  The willpower not to eat them all ;)

317.  My children's friends that I actually enjoy being around ;)

318.  "Mom, our house is looking so classy.....you know how to make everything look good!"

319.  Walking into the kitchen after leaving dinner dishes everywhere on my way to Taekwondo, and discovering that HE took care of them ♥

320. One more day with those that I love......even if I do need #307 to help me get through it ;)

My Mustard Seed Planting verse today:

"And He said to me, My grace is sufficient for you: For my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness, so that Christ’s power may rest on me." 

~2 Corinthians 12:9 



Multitude Monday.....On Wednesday: Gifts 289 - 306

Hem your blessings with thankfulness so they don't unravel.

~Author Unknown

=)

289.  Finding a quote for this week's post that made me smile.......how appropriate for me ; )

290.  Leftovers for dinner.....I never have understood people who don't eat leftovers ~ I often double a recipe for the sole purpose of having a night off in the future!!

291.  5 bags of old college textbooks (and a few other things) taken to Goodwill, .....

292. ....the husband who finally relinquished them after years of effort on my part ; )......

293. ....and how beautiful my bookshelves now look because they've been jam-packed with stuff shoved every-which-way-it-will-fit.....clutter-busting is a very beautiful thing  indeed!

294. Dinner with ♥sweet♥ friends

295.  a dresser found at Goodwill for $14.99 !!  to replace a very sad-looking one for my youngest son,....

296. .....several clothing items for my kids (Gap, Old Navy, etc.) at $2, $3, $4 each,....

297.  .....a new set of Pfalzgraff everyday dishes at half the price of another set I've been looking at.....oh, so pretty!....,

298.  .....and, a new set of glassware (we had an unexpected thrift/bargain store shopping experience yesterday.....after my complaining this weekend  that all my  friends find the best treasures while thrift store shopping & I never do).....

299.  God's sense of humor =)

300.  the strangers who helped my 11-yr. old and me get #294 into our vehicle....

301.  .....and the neighbor who helped us get it inside the house

302.  a bathroom light that finally works the way it's supposed to thanks to my.....

303.  Mr. Fix-It ♥

304.  my SIL, who is back in the same city for good after a year in Ohio

305.  perspective {gratitude, thankfulness, happiness, being content where God has you.....it's all about having the right one, ya know}

306.  coffee, without which this post might not be coherent ; ) {I'm having a hard time waking up today!}

Mustard Seed Planting today.....and although riches would be nice, I'm reminded in Proverbs ~

"Labour not to be rich: cease from thine own wisdom. Wilt thou set thine eyes upon that which is not? for riches certainly make themselves wings; they fly away as an eagle toward heaven."

Prov. 23:4-5



Multitude Monday.....On Wednesday: Gifts 269-287

Keeping up with my  Multitude Monday list of Gratitude, on Wednesdays for now, because that's what's workin' for me! ; )

"Thou hast given so much to me,

Give one thing more, - a grateful heart;

Not thankful when it pleaseth me,

As if Thy blessings had spare days,

But such a heart whose pulse may be Thy praise."

~ George Herbert

269.  Projects that turn out just as I expected =)


270.  Clean floors, courtesy of a 9 year old


271.  Folded laundry, courtesy of an 11 year old


272.  Clean litter box, courtesy of anyone but me ; )

273.  Having everything I needed for a spur-of-the-moment dinner idea


274.  Schooling in the summer.....what a blessing this is for us, living on OUR schedule (for the most part) so that we can maintain a less-stressed-out pace and take breaks when we need/feel like throughout the year


275.  Seeing progress in my mad organizational spree I have been on


276.  Friends made through blogging, that I never would have otherwise "met"

277.  Fun notifications that appeal to the "Diva" in me ; ) ......such as another "Stylish Blogger Award"....

thank you, Connie from Green Family-Life....you made me =) today!

278.  When my husband gets the coffee all set the night before, eliminating one more thing I have to do at the end of the day =)


279.  Deodorant, something you should never take for granted in the kind of heat we have ; )


280.  Boys who keep life so interesting in so many ways, such as....


281.  ...putting a sweet arm around my shoulders, and when I glance to my right.....there's a bright green lizard staring me in the face!!!! And......


282.  ...discovering a renegade pirate in my house when I turn around a corner:

....and....

283. .....finding Mr. Tough Guy taking a Sunday nap with all the things every  well-prepared 11 year old might need:  a shotgun, a pistol and his Sword (Bible)! =)

284.  A nine year old, all set to head to the grocery store with me ~ "I'm ready to handle the smoke!", he said (due to nearby fires).

285.  A rainy afternoon (while we need a lot more, I'm thankful for the little we got)

286.  An *awesome* Middle School youth pastor, who faithfully loads pictures and videos onto facebook and sends frequent text updates of our kids who are singing, serving and telling others about Christ's love for them on their mission trip/choir tour!

287.  My not-such-a-baby girl, who comes home tonight! =)

In honor of what our Middle School group has been doing this week, and this past Sunday's sermon on reaching others for the cause of Christ, my Mustard Seed Planting verse this week is:

“You have not chosen Me, but I have chosen you

and ordained you that you should

Go & bring forth fruit."

~ John 15:16